I'm a guy and 25. I have been working in disability for 2yrs at a group home and it is incredibly taxing and I don't feel like I care about it at all, I just go through the motions and do the bare minimum and clock off. Some coworkers are micromanaging and trying to change lives but the people we care for have no chance of leading a normal life and have been institutionalized for 50+yrs prior to coming to us. It is what it is.

I'm stuck and lost, I dread going to work and I can't put on the mask anymore, I have no idea what to pursue and I feel my mental health being ruined because I am working towards nothing and the shifts are so long and lacking any motivation.

For the record I don't slack off, I do what is required in all areas but if this is me for the next however many years I am afraid I will become significantly unhappy and stuck in this job.

Everyone I know have secure jobs and seem to enjoy it, but I have no idea what to pursue at all and it is stressing me out every day. I don't even enjoy time off because I am mentally preparing for the oncoming shifts.

Kind of panicking tbh.